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March 22 Still Alive w/ ChangesHellooooo all! What's crackin?
Been a while, hasn't it... well, much has changed. Not everything, but quite a good bit.
For instance, I'm no longer in Grenada. Yes, it has happened - I got married to a Turkish woman and we're now living in Malta, in a gorgeous stone-hewn mansion atop a seaside cliff with a most breathtaking view...
Hah... I still got it...
Actually, I'm in Miami at Florida International University (gasp! education?! I believe your first story more, cuz there's just no way...) trying to get into a Masters Creative Writing course. Yep, writing beat out theatre and animation... for now.
It's been interesting, to say the least. I'm away from the parental shadow (though they talk to me almost everyday on MS-sorry, wait, Windows Live Messenger... who got them on there anyway?!?) make my own decisions mostly, and experience life on my own.
Did I mention I live on campus and my neighbors are girls? mm hmm... interesting, to say the least.
Yet for all of that... I am still single. Don't worry, no diatribe is forthcoming. I will talk about this one I'm very interested in, though. Uh huh, yeah, she's "white", but she's really nice and is a hard worker. I like her.
So what's the problem? Why am I still single? Because she's not.
The age-old problem still exists... or have I not shared that little part with you all either? Well, it seems that all the girls I've liked in the past 2 years or so are in relationships. It matters not if they are good, bad or long distance.. they are in a relationship. I will not mess with that. Wouldn't want that to happen to me.
That said, I don't know why they entertain me anyways... they must know that I'm not hanging out with them because I want to be buddy buddy with them. I have enough male friends to be buddy buddy with. And I don't want to ex-communicate them jus so... I'm a nice guy. So I'd cut them off because I couldn't get past... whatever base is the friend base with them? Naw. But it is somewhat torturing for me.
Anyways, I like this girl with a boyfriend, and I think she likes me. But what can I offer her? She has a boyfriend who works, so some money is coming in other than from her own efforts. I on the other hand, cannot work as an international student. I can't drive (no car, no license... and yes, its killing me... I miss driving :( ) And then of course, there's "that thing"... like I said, not everything has changed. hm.
I did say to myself that I would write this to examine if I really did like her, or if it was just emotions (read: lust) being around her, and me responding to what I perceive as her mutual attraction. I'm not sure if its lust... I don't really want to have sex with her (though sometimes my pet cockerspaniel thinks otherwise, lol). We had spring break not too long ago, and I knew I wouldn't see her for a while, and I wondered if I would miss her or go crazy or sumn... Well, not so much. I actually didn think about her much - playing PS3 and xbox360 might have had something to do with that. They say absence makes the heart grow fonder. That didn't happen in my case.
So is it real? In any case, it doesn't make sense to dwell on it. She has a good thing going with her man (as she keeps reminding me, damn her, lol). I just wish I could meet someone free that I could connect with like I did with her, on that level. There've been other girls (I mean, I'm in Miami after all), but... sigh, I dunno.
Perhaps I get with these girls because I feel I'm safe from getting in too deep with them? Well, not this one... I actually invited her out before I found out she had a boyfriend. That burned, you know... while we're eating and talking, she decides to drop it on me then that she's taken. Not cool.
Oh well, the search continues. At least I have some more material to write songs about. Yeah, I still do that. ex Mach is in Orlando, just came from there for spring break... we did do a little recording. No whole songs though... We have completionist issues, lol.
SO! umm, what else... what did y'all miss in the past 2 years... my job slowly sucking and sucking more? A couple of misfires/missteps in the love life? My theatrical debut? That's right, I was on stage, acting my heart out. Nervous wreck, but people liked it. There's video on youtube, check my account. We went overseas with it too. Whats this? An embed video button? let me see...
YEH-HEH-HESSSSSSS... laugh at me.
I also performed some of my songs at a "concert". Aside from the boos at the start, generally well received, lol. Look for it yourself.
Sister in Mexico got married. My Chemical Romance's Never Coming Home, anyone?
I think that's it for now.. kinda late. If anyone does actually read this, well.... hope it wasn't a boring read.
A good day to all... March 23 A year nearly pass...Sup folks
Looks like a year nearly passed before I added something new. I know y'all didn't miss it though...
So... what's new? What could possibly be new within the space of... what is it... eight months? .... nearly nine? Well, I'll be a daddy soon. Soon as in like 5 years maybe. Gotcha huh... I think we all know better than that.
So really now... what's new... well, you remember that song I told you I had recorded? That went regional...it's been played on a Bajan radio station, maybe elsewhere. Props to Arturo Valentino for playing it, and to Chozen_1 for linking me up to him. Tenk youuuuuz. I have since started recording two other new songs... both are unfinished, though one is very close to completion if we (as in eX Mach and I) could just find the time and (I had the) motivation to do it.
Anyways, one is another soul/r&b type song like Down & Out... only thing holding that one up is some beat modifications I'd like done around the bridge so I can unLEASH!!!! lol. The next one (which is the one that's nearly done) is... well, I don't know how to say this, so I'll put it bluntly...it's a... it's a soca now before you jump to any conclusions its not a regular soca as in it's not made for people to whine down to (though nothing can stop that from happening, the beat too good) just listen to it when it done aiight?!?! ... okay... Now you can give me textual lash.
What else.. what else... I haven't crashed my new ride *seriously* yet, and I am stating here in faith that I never will. There have been taps and the like, but nothing serious. Thank God.
Now I'm sure some o' y'all are at least wondering ever so slightly, "what's happening on the ladies' front Sam?" (laugh and insert your jokes here, I know you want to). I'm happy to say, enough has happened for me have the condition known as "woman stress". That means I've come a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG way, hah. Things seemed to pick up from around Christmas time, and right now... well, let's say I'm watching certain situations. But I'm kinda happy I have a new reason to be miserable. I'll be even happier if and when that misery turns into something good, knowaddamean?
Ah, I'm also now a YouTuber. But you already knew that. You can check out my videos and stuff here: http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=samboghini
Let's see... well I think that's about it fer now. Let's see if I can write something again before too long. Oh and yeah, I'm 22 now. Took it on March 6th, and I wish I could say my birthday celebration was as eventful as it was last year. Well, it was, slightly, cuz the parents and the friends decided to throw me a surprise pawdy. There was no jumping out from behind the couch and shouting "SUPPPLIES!!!" like a chiney; I was pleasantly surprised though... I suspected nothing even though in retrospect I should have seen the suspicious behaviour all around, especially on the actual day of the "party". Anyways, that was it for eventful, cuz not long after that everyone fell asleep, including birthday boy here. Not a good impression for the "special guest" I had come over at the last minute. Hm hm hm hm hm....
Well, thinking back on it further (I seem to do that a lot, don't I), I guess my eventful birthday stuff happened the weekend before, when Tempo had their concert here in Grenada. Yeah, I went. It was like Soca Monarch all over again... all dem local performers had new verse to buss out in honour of Tempo. Gyptian didn make it, but Rupee filled in his place adequately. And the lead performer (as advertised) was Richie Spice. Not a bad concert at all in the end (to me, anyways... I'm a show-going novice). Then again, there was another reason why I enjoyed it so much... HM HM HM HM HM HM.
So yeah!! Umm... so THAT'S about it fer now. If y'all does pray, pray for me eh... nowadays tings ent easy for me as a Christian. Not at all. So please, pray for me. And what goes around comes around, so best believe it'll only be good for you if you do what I ask- nay, say. SO, that's that. Till the next moment of idleness... July 06 Has it really been that long? dayum...LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!!!
Finally, I can get the pictures I took from my phone on to the computer, so you can get an idea of how bad the crash was.
  So, um, you'll be happy to know that I've since acquired a new vehicle. It's actually the car I wanted to have from the get go, so I'm pretty cool with it:
 I've had this for... hey, today is the one month anniversary! Damn it's been long. Anyways, just a quickie. Pics say it all. Tek it easy till nex time.
April 25 In the market for a new carHello all
I'm currently looking to buy a new car. Now before you say, "Wooooooooooy boy, Sam have rell money to spen boy!" let me make it clear that it has nothing to do with me wanting to have two cars. The fact of the matter is, I don't have one anymore.
"How come you-" you may start off, but no doubt the answer would've already crossed your mind.
And you'd be correct.
Yeah, I crashed my car.
And I crashed it essentially into three cars and a house, though I only hit two cars. Now you may ask again, how did you manage that? And I would reply, from now on, I'm going to get to bed a little earlier from now on.
YES, I fell asleep at the wheel.
Without going into too much details, I was approaching Gouyave feeling sleepy and decided to pull up in there - out of the sun - and catch a few Zs. Apparently, I didn't make it in time, cuz I woke up on the wrong side of the road the instant I hit the first car - on my side, which produced a nice crater. Further to that, trying to jam the brakes, I couldn't get my foot off the gas - fear, must be - and went head on into another parked car at a very high speed.
That slowed me down alright.
Anyways, that car rammed into the car parked behind it, causing some damage to it. Oh, and the first car rammed into a nearby house's verandah. Can you hear it? That's the sound of money slipping throught the crater of my bank account.
But that'll teach me to stay up late to finsh watching a rented movie, even if it was to be able to return it the next day without incurring a late fee or a second rent.
Anyways, I WAS going to tell y'all bout my lil vacation that I just returned from, but it wasn't that interesting and frankly, I can't be bothered now. Oh but by the way, I'm more or less safe, just two bruises by my knee and hip bone. Hurts like hell, but I can walk. Nothing else popped up yet, but we'll see what tomorrow brings.
I just thank Jesus that I didn't die, and that I didn't kill anyone. I truly am grateful for him sparing my life. To be honest though, as I was careering towards the second car, I had no fear of death. It was like... all in slow motion and I was like "WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH". Seriously though, I just felt like I wasn't going to die that way. Thank God I wasn't wrong! LOL!
Anyways people, I goan need some serious prayers. So help me out, willya? Thanks. 'Preciate it. Till next time I see y'all. March 11 Birthday boyLadies and - well... ladies.
Observe the following picture:
What is this, you may ask? I'll tell you. This is how I celebrated my 21st birthday on Friday March 3rd, though the actual occasion was on Monday the 6th. And yes, I am the one to the far right. In the yellow. I'm not even the focus of this picture, though I was so desperately trying to be. I mean what with all the bright colours and the reflective sneakers - yeah, looks like I wanted to be noticed eh? What a drag... But this wasn't the only picture taken that night (it was around 10:30, 11 pm then). No no. I can't post the rest of the pictures because then you all would see how much fun I was having later on, and that would damage my reputation - in more ways than one. LAL! I thought that my birthday would come and go with not much fanfare and activity, kind of what I've gotten used to over the years. But friends, having a car changes things. I was able to round up some of the pals, order up a pizza, race down to get it before the place closed at 10 (one of the pals had to execute a tuck and roll to exit the car, since we couldn't really stop, ha HAAA! kidding...) chill and lime and eat said pizza in area pictured above. Even more fellas from back in school days showed up and we talk crap for a while. All good. This was up to 11:45, at which time I put on my dancing shoes and we all headed down to local Club Bananas at midnight. Got inside the club - empty. This is start of month Friday, and it empty. Well, except for some man rell lovin heself to the music that was playin. Most of the posse go outside for about 20 mins. Come back in - almost full. From there on out, it was on as boil corn. I had a GOOD birthday celebration. Came back home quarter to five, was up by nine wid still too much energy pent up. Beach it out. The beach was aight too. Nuff said. YEAH! Sunday, nuthin big or special happen, methinks... Monday (the actual day), parents took me to dinner, not bad food. Prayer meeting that night, people dunno is mi birthday but they bring enough food to feed an army - aka ME (sure....). It was prolly the best birthday I've had in my short lifetime.
Only downhill from here. DIATRIBE Why the hell do I like to just kill the spirit so eh? Cuz nuthing good lasts long in this world nuh. Even while it going good it go bad. Have to know that if anything bad can happen, it will. I'll keep looking at the silver lining though.. only way to counteract. Oh and to ignore that which would get you vex and realise is only small ting in the long run. Even if you are paralysed from the neck down, is small ting once you get used to it. Jus kill de fella who mek you so. LOL. Never mind that then. Rambles to bramble. I'm tired, it's 2:23 am Saturday morning. Forgive me if I seem short. Can't give one. Happy Birthday too Joe (bro born on same day as me, and I told him ontime too so no worries). Much love. February 19 2006 part 2 - a most sucky timeIt is 1:18 am Sunday morning. What am I doing up? Typing, in the hopes that I can drown some of my frustrations in this cybersea of electrical impulses and synapses.
Apart from hurting physically (from a ripped out toenail, a high speed aerial elbow to my lower midsection and a failed "clean"dive resulting in spinal compression and a slight concussion), I have now been burdened with the realisation that I may be the last of my bredrens to have any sort of relationship with the opposite sex.
My seemingly frostbitten manner that I carried throughout community college (my re-entry back into the world of coe-ed institutions), coupled with my fear of having to provide "that thing" if I ever did start something with a woman (which is frowned upon by my parents and I have been raised to avoid) have served to cripple any intentions I had of pursuing - hell, even starting - some sort of said relationship.
Long and short of it, I'm pretty much something of a coward. And I don't want it to be that way.
Especially when I see friends of mine having a flock and gaggle o' gals comin an check dem. Where is my, dare I say, "harem"? I just wanna be loved (yes, sing the damn song). Now mind you, I don't want that so I can have sex with any and every girl I meet and like - well, maybe I do want something like that, but then I'd have to face my parents and God, aka Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. I feel bad enough as it is with my current vices...
Which leads me to wonder whether or not it is those vices that are holding me back from achieving such a goal (not the harem, fools, a relationship!!) And why should it? There are people out there that I'm sure do worse stuff than me but have everything they want... in this life. I guess they'll pay for it in hell or sometime later in life... but again, sometimes life isn't fair like that.
People that know me or know of me might think I'm just whining and lazy, cuz in theory I have all the things that would ensure many female (lol) encounters. And this is not to say that I haven't had my share. It just seems that those whom I do attract aren't my type. As in much older or with children. As much as there is an attraction for older women, I would try to stay in my age group. Problems again.. I can much more easily speak and hold something of a longer conversation (not one of my strong suits) with women than I can with girls. This may be a wrong assumption, but it seems the younger ones just want to get it on like a jackrabbit, while the older ones, if they have such desire, can suppress it because of prior experience and/or maturity.
Am I thinking about sex too much? Only natural, I am a heterosexual male, unlike what those flucking idiots accuse me of and then say "I jus jokin man.. but you know, you prone to dem kinda things", if they're even that considerate. Nutting does get me more vex than jackasses who like to call man gay because dem en see dem chillin, or move awkward and shy around woman. You know why I do that? Take a wild guess. I wish it didn't have to be that way, but until I find my wife, I'm going to try to keep it that way. Never mind that she may not be a take a wild guess herself... I cyaan watch dat. I can only hope that it will be like mom and pops said it would be. And that she goan teach me some tricks -HA HAAAAA!! To which I shall return the favor... hm hm hm.
Anyways, nuff a my useless rambling. Nothing's going to happen unless I do something about it. Church tomorrow. I'ma pray for y'all. If I stay awake. February 03 2006 - a most glorious year It's been a while...Everyone! Special report! Next Tuesday is a public holiday - Grenada's Independence Day! Do you know what I'll be doing? Huh?
The answer ranges from nothing to I don't know yet.
It just kinda crept up on me. Me, the infamous Holiday Hunter! I must be losing my touch... either that, or I'm beginning to like work. Of course, that's a distinct impossibility.
Isn't it?
Anyways folks, yesterday was my alma mater's 121st anniversary of existence. That's right, the Grenada Boys Secondary School is 121 years old. The only other school on the island that is older than the GBSS is the St Joseph's Convent of St George's. Figures that the girls always have to have the one-up on us. But don't worry, we co-exist just fine, right? Cuz we men are bastions of peace. We're not instigators. Unless it's over a woman.
Driving is going along quite swimmingly. You know I don't have much to say when I start talking about DRIVING.
But oh wait... (in trute, 2006 has had quite a few momentous occasions for Grenada already) I am pleased to announce that Grenada released its first locally made, locally acted cinematic movie! "Blinded" starred Tahira Carter and De Leon Walters, not to mention a certain X Mach fella. Having been at the premiere screening of the movie, I can attest to the fact that it was indeed enjoyable. Now every Jack Daniels with a camera is going to film a "movie". And this can only be good for Grenada-and myself-because not only will many people be able to practice and perfect their craft, but I will have hours and hours of lame and unintentionally hilaaaaaarious footage to keep me amused all day.
But seriously, while I've always had an interest in writing something that could be translated into a play or TV, seeing how well received this production was has inspired me to attempt screenwriting. Hell, I may even study it in university or sumthin. This subject ranks up there with theatre and animation, so it';s still a tight race. But I think I know who'll win.
Last thing: for all you Chuck Norris fans out there (of which I am not one, really) you should check out www.chucknorrisfacts.com. It has all sorts of little-known facts about the once-"Most Dangerous Man Alive". And even if you're not a fan, it is a VERY entertaining read. Trust me.
Recorded a song recently... it has the distinction of being the first ever song written by me, as well as arranged by me. Produced by Ex Mach (not to be confused with X Mach, lol) of Ah.Paw.Ka.Lypse Productions on a beat done by a French guy - kudos to l'homme, il est trop bon, trop damn bon - reviews so far have been generous. Let's hope it'll be well received OUTSIDE of my family, though it does seem promising. Listen for it sometime this year, but don't expect an album -it took us 2 months to record this one song, and if I have to come better for a follow up single... well... you do the math.
Well folks, until the next time I write, enjoy my Vanity Fair photo album, cleverly disguised as a tribute to GBSS Day. Well, at least most of the pictures show the GBSS tie.
Latesir
Oh, and Happy New Year and greetings to all who read this. Special mention goes to YingYang, Chozen_1 and Kelly, who took the time to leave comments here. 'Preciate it.
Latesir. For real now. Okay. |
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