Hellooooo all! What's crackin?

 

Been a while, hasn't it... well, much has changed. Not everything, but quite a good bit.

 

For instance, I'm no longer in Grenada. Yes, it has happened - I got married to a Turkish woman and we're now living in Malta, in a gorgeous stone-hewn mansion atop a seaside cliff with a most breathtaking view...

 

Hah... I still got it...

 

Actually, I'm in Miami at Florida International University (gasp! education?! I believe your first story more, cuz there's just no way...) trying to get into a Masters Creative Writing course.  Yep, writing beat out theatre and animation... for now.

 

It's been interesting, to say the least.  I'm away from the parental shadow (though they talk to me almost everyday on MS-sorry, wait, Windows Live Messenger... who got them on there anyway?!?) make my own decisions mostly, and experience life on my own.

 

Did I mention I live on campus and my neighbors are girls? mm hmm... interesting, to say the least.

 

Yet for all of that... I am still single. Don't worry, no diatribe is forthcoming. I will talk about this one I'm very interested in, though.  Uh huh, yeah, she's "white", but she's really nice and is a hard worker.  I like her.

 

So what's the problem? Why am I still single? Because she's not.

 

The age-old problem still exists... or have I not shared that little part with you all either? Well, it seems that all the girls I've liked in the past 2 years or so are in relationships.  It matters not if they are good, bad or long distance.. they are in a relationship.  I will not mess with that.  Wouldn't want that to happen to me.

 

That said, I don't know why they entertain me anyways... they must know that I'm not hanging out with them because I want to be buddy buddy with them. I have enough male friends to be buddy buddy with. And I don't want to ex-communicate them jus so... I'm a nice guy. So I'd cut them off because I couldn't get past... whatever base is the friend base with them? Naw. But it is somewhat torturing for me.

 

Anyways, I like this girl with a boyfriend, and I think she likes me. But what can I offer her? She has a boyfriend who works, so some money is coming in other than from her own efforts. I on the other hand, cannot work as an international student. I can't drive (no car, no license... and yes, its killing me... I miss driving :( ) And then of course, there's "that thing"... like I said, not everything has changed. hm.

 

I did say to myself that I would write this to examine if I really did like her, or if it was just emotions (read: lust) being around her, and me responding to what I perceive as her mutual attraction. I'm not sure if its lust... I don't really want to have sex with her (though sometimes my pet cockerspaniel thinks otherwise, lol). We had spring break not too long ago, and I knew I wouldn't see her for a while, and I wondered if I would miss her or go crazy or sumn... Well, not so much. I actually didn think about her much - playing PS3 and xbox360 might have had something to do with that.  They say absence makes the heart grow fonder.  That didn't happen in my case.

 

So is it real? In any case, it doesn't make sense to dwell on it. She has a good thing going with her man (as she keeps reminding me, damn her, lol). I just wish I could meet someone free that I could connect with like I did with her, on that level. There've been other girls (I mean, I'm in Miami after all), but... sigh, I dunno.

 

Perhaps I get with these girls because I feel I'm safe from getting in too deep with them? Well, not this one... I actually invited her out before I found out she had a boyfriend.  That burned, you know... while we're eating and talking, she decides to drop it on me then that she's taken. Not cool.

 

Oh well, the search continues. At least I have some more material to write songs about. Yeah, I still do that. ex Mach is in Orlando, just came from there for spring break... we did do a little recording.  No whole songs though... We have completionist issues, lol.

 

SO! umm, what else... what did y'all miss in the past 2 years... my job slowly sucking and sucking more? A couple of misfires/missteps in the love life? My theatrical debut? That's right, I was on stage, acting my heart out. Nervous wreck, but people liked it.  There's video on youtube, check my account. We went overseas with it too. Whats this? An embed video button? let me see...

 

YEH-HEH-HESSSSSSS... laugh at me.

I also performed some of my songs at a "concert". Aside from the boos at the start, generally well  received, lol. Look for it yourself. 

Sister in Mexico got married. My Chemical Romance's Never Coming Home, anyone?

I think that's it for now.. kinda late.  If anyone does actually read this, well.... hope it wasn't a boring read.

 

A good day to all...